I did it. I sacked up and forked over payment for another 3 month subscription to Chemistry.com. Let me tell you, this site’s not cheap! But I figured that since I am willing to splurge in other areas (ordering takeout and flying to Oregon for a booty call pop into mind…) I suppose it makes sense to invest in my love life, such as it is.
A big part of me just doesn’t believe, given my dates over the past months, that it’s likely I’ll meet someone this way. Of course tons of my friends have met their sig o’s online, and really, once you meet someone, it doesn’t matter how you met – but the dating is just so awkward. I still have this fantasy that I’ll meet someone organically, there’ll be a spark, we will skip past all the blind-date junk and things will just click. Is that too much to ask? As it is, I find myself worrying about stupid things, like whether my teeth are white enough (should I bleach them?), whether it’s false advertising that all my pictures show me with long hair when I recently cut off 8 inches, and the like. Silly, right? (Or maybe not – this is L.A. after all.)
As for my visit to see C. this weekend, it turns out that we won’t make it to the coast until about 2 am. I am seriously contemplating changing my flight so that I get in earlier. My 2 options are – 1) leave work a few hours early, fly through Portland and get into Eugene at 9:45 pm, or 2) take Friday off and arrive in Eugene at 1 pm. If I can swing taking Friday off, that would be the best – it would make the trip way more worth it, and I did work a good chunk of today, despite the office being closed, so I can justify it to myself. Then again, I am juggling so many things at work that I’m not sure I can afford to take a day off on such short notice. I’m saving up my vacation days…and I’m trying to bill like crazy to get ahead for the year. But I do hate being a slave to all that and sometimes I just want to say “peace out”! Also, even though the next 2 months will be crazy, this week I don’t have anything due on Friday. Hmmm. Indecisive much? I will decide tomorrow…
By the way, if you laughed at my last post, don’t feel bad – all my friends cracked up too, and I know the situation is pretty hilarious. So, laugh away.
Okay, so in the past 5 minutes, as I have been writing this, I have just remembered why I disliked Chemistry.com. The artificial steps…the “relationship essentials” and “short answers.” I was sucked in because a couple of cute guys were “interested in me.” Damn you, Chemistry.com! *Sigh.*
All day I’ve been thinking about what I wanted to write tonight, and now that I’m staring at the screen it has all vanished. Sorry, dear readers, and thanks for tolerating my stream of consciousness!
Filed under: dating, love, men, online dating, relationships, travel, vacation, weekend, work
I know that the online dating thing doesn’t seem likely to lead to anything (that reminds me of a very familiar response to discovery requests – “objection, this request is not calculated to lead to admissible evidence”, blech), but you never know. Going through the motions just to is never fun. I used to do it because it was becoming exceedlingly clear that what I was doing before (read: nothing) wasn’t getting the job done. It is awkward, though. But I think that is always the case, no matter how you meet.
I wouldn’t worry about the small stuff – if some guy is turned off because your hair is shorter now than before, then who needs him.
Whatever you decide to do about Oregon – have fun!