Happy Monday, dear readers! I feel like I’ve been pretty delinquent in the blogging lately, and I want to make a concerted effort to get better. During the day I think of things I want to blog about, and I think I need to jot them down because when I finally get a moment to sit down and write, I am sometimes struck with a serious case of writer’s block!
This was a whirlwind weekend but it was a lot of fun. On Friday night I went to the Dodgers game. My firm has tickets in the Dugout Club and it was just fantastic. I’m admittedly not a real baseball fan — I don’t really follow it at all during the season — but I have a lot of fun going to games. Whether it’s in the awesome seats like this time or way far up in the peanut gallery, I just love the atmosphere. Give me some peanuts and a Dodger dog and I’m as happy as a clam! Even though it was a very close game, we (bad non-fans, I know, I know!) left after the 7th inning because I had to catch an early flight in the morning, I had to drive my co worker home and it was already after 10:30 pm. When I got home, I was antsy and couldn’t sleep and I checked the score — the game ended up going into the 13th inning!!! I was sort of relieved that we didn’t stick out the whole game since it didn’t end till after 12:30 am, but I was also bummed that we missed the end of such a great game!
The next part of my weekend was a trip up to San Francisco for my friend and former roommate Knittikins’ wedding celebration. She and her honey eloped at the end of February and her parents and godparents threw her a small dinner this weekend for family and close friends. So on Saturday I caught an early morning flight up to San Francisco. First of all, I very highly recommend Virgin America …SO much better than Southwest! I arrived up there at about 10 and CM. (my best college friend and other former roommate and Knittikins’ sister), and TM, their baby sister picked me up from the airport.
After a brief detour (aka, getting ourselves slightly lost in the city) we went to meet up with some of our college friends for brunch. It was really fun to see them. Our friend N. and her girlfriend E.L. are expecting a baby in July and E.L. is quite pregnant and SO cute! It was funny to hear them talk about their expectations and fears. We all cracked up when N. told how she semi-dropped her friend’s 9 month old baby by placing her on her feet in front of the couch. N. said “well, I just expected her to fall on all fours, like my cat does.” (Needless to say, the baby did NOT behave like a cat….) Our other friend E.C. is finishing her 2L year of law school and is going to be a summer associate at a big scary law firm in NY this summer. It had been a long time since I’d seen her, but there’s something about certain friends…when you meet up, it’s like no time has passed. I do wish I got to see those girls more.
After brunch we returned to the family’s house and all started getting ready to head over to the venue for pre-event photos. We got there and it was gorgeous- a restaurant in Sausalito with huge windows overlooking the Bay and with a view of the SF skyline. The photographer took tons of shots (I even got to be in some, as the former roommate / honorary sister 
) and I can’t wait to see them. Knittikins looked gorgeous.
Once photos ended we headed upstairs and hung out for a while before the guests arrived, we had appetizers then a sit down dinner. I was seated at a table with two of Knittikins’ HS friends and one of her college friends and her husband. I knew most of them because they’d lived in LA for part of the time we lived together, so it was fun to catch up with them. The dinner was yummy, there were some nice toasts and everyone seemed really happy and mellow. I have to say, the highlight of the night was totally silly and random — their godmother had borrowed a Nintendo Wii and it was set up in a corner of the restaurant with a giant screen. The most priceless moment was Knittikins and her college friend going at it with the Wii boxing — in their high heels and beautiful dresses, leaping around, getting low to the ground and then jumping up — it was hysterical. I can’t wait to see the photos!
I spent quite some time over the course of the weekend thinking about San Francisco as a city and trying to picture myself living there. For many years now, I have dreamed about living up there, but have never taken the leap. When I was in college I did a summer program up in Berkeley and fell in love with the Bay area — that’s also when I first got to know CM’s family. I applied to law school in Berkeley and didn’t get in, and was thrilled to go to UCLA…and the rest is history. I worked at my firm as a summer associate, started there in fall of ‘05 and have been in L.A. this whole time.
But more and more I keep thinking — I have a freedom that a lot of people my age don’t have, in that I have no husband, no boyfriend, no kids, no mortgage — I could pick up and move at a moment’s notice without thinking of anyone’s needs but mine. Of course, just because I could doesn’t necessarily mean I should — but if I were going to take a big leap, now would be the time to do it. Over the weekend I found myself saying, “I’ve always wanted to live in San Francisco…” and I wondered, Will I still be saying that when I’m 40? Would I regret if I never try it?
Even without the kids and the mortgage, there is still a lot holding me back. Above all, I adore my friends — who have been my family here for the past 6 years when my parents are 1000 miles away. Of course, my job and the people I work with. And Los Angeles itself, which I have always had a love/hate relationship with, but which has, it seems, become much more loving over the years.
And, what I hope isn’t the primary thing, but could be — fear. I’ve never started totally from scratch in a new city, and it would be pretty terrifying. I know that even if it could be wonderful in the long run, it would be a rocky road and a tough adjustment.
I don’t really know how to sort all of this out, so I’ve done a trick that my mom taught me when I was in high school – I created pro and con lists and I set them aside to let them percolate. I know that the earliest I would make any move would be 2009 because I would want to finish out the year at my firm…so I have some time to consider it. It’s a lot to think about!
Next time, more juicy tidbits from my love life (or lack thereof). Till then, dear readers, good night!
Filed under: Los Angeles, friends, happy, life, navel-gazing, relationships, single, travel, weekend
